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Wed Jan 9, 2008, 4:47 AM
I was thinking about dedicating this post to all of the fans who support Mrs. Hillary Clinton, which for my opinion she’s a great person and totally mature to provide a good presidency to all Americans, and not even Americans but Latin Americans. Whatsoever, I don’t know how many people can react if Mrs. Clinton wins elections this year. I am sure a lot of people will know that all the promises she makes now for around 4 years more won’t be all accomplished but what I do know is that big agreements to all Latin American people should be provide through all those 4 years of her presidency if she still wins the election. In Latin American we have seen women becoming presidents like in Argentina or Chile, and they have shown a loyal but powerful government in their respective country, but I’m stopping talking about this, and let’s jump a little bit to the topic I have set for today.
Now I am working, but not supposed to be working, but at work which means that at any hour I will be stood up working for awhile, I think I have posted about my current work and which my perspective are, but surely I don’t remember a thing. However, I think I’m improving my English day by day, and this is why I’m talking, chatting, writing, thinking in English as hell, but I do like this because I have been doing a lot of efforts to accomplish this language which has been a good positive goal in my life. However, I know I’m loosing my Italian and I don’t want to because I did a lot of things to learn this beautiful but excellent language and I’m not supposed to forget it, I can be mad with myself because of this, but I’m sure I’m not forgetting any grammar but vocabulary, which for me it’s not a positive thing.
Today I woke up like no other day, more energetic, stronger, smarter, and other stuff you will imagine what these are, but before going to bed after midnight I was thinking a lot about several things and I think I don’t have no idea why I cannot control myself. I will tell you little by little what I was thinking because I know you will understand even a part but not all of my ideas. First of all, I know you won’t catch everything but what I want to do in here is that I need you to understand my point. I was getting a meeting with my own mind and we were talking each other (a metaphor, perhaps?) but the fact is that I was disagree with myself because like if I were watching myself in a mirror I was actually not agree with my entire auto control. I will explain this to all of you because I bet you are saying what the fuck is Ramphis talking about? But I’m making a great point in that for example if I meet a person and I like this person a lot I start flirting, and chasing this person around to make myself important in ones life, but it’s actually because I don’t know if it is going to work or it will be stopped there, just a friendship and that’s it. Sometimes I feel like if I am that ugly to back off all the people I care of, or I supposed to care, but I feel like I am not comfortable with this situation because if I cannot handle this, I will miss a lot of friends, which actually I have been missing for years. Seriously, I have no friends till I reached the end of the school season in my life, the last year I was not winning, but getting friends through those days and I messed everything, I met new people and stuff, and I did a lot of things that even I didn’t know I was able to do. The other day I ended up my friendship with one of the person I tagged as best-friend, which actually was a fake friendship, and this is another point I will comment later, because I think we need to know what to do and how to face these kind of problems/mistakes all along.
I have been totally disagree with this person and his immature moments to face the problems we were facing in the final of the last year, but that’s old and I won’t talk that part, because I’m starting to forget and that’s what actually I wanted to do since this year got started. I may mention that we need to know who our fake friends are and not start tagging this person, or these people like if they were part of our lives, because I bet they don’t worth it. I think it is a bad habit I got and not a skill when I say I start to flirt or to start a new friendship with a person, which later can become a relationship, but let’s things happen and not talk about future because I have learnt not to talk about it. I think we deserve a real friend, and I think I have found mine's, but some of them are just there without knowing who I am, some of them know me pretty well and I like it because I don’t have to hide things from these friends. Seriously, I think I will try to give chances once again for those people I am starting to know right now, because I think one of them must be a real friend of mine, or can become another mistake in my life, but I don’t want to think about negative things either. Let’s things happen while we make our best efforts to make some kind of friendship campaign for these new friends I am just knowing without fantasying or speculating things that perhaps it might not happen.
So, I am ended up with this post and I hope you liked it a lot like I did. And if you have reached to this point, I mean reading to this point, congratz because it’s some kind of goal. Hehehe, Thanks a lot to you.
- Mood:
Defeated - Listening to: R. Kelly - I'm a Flirt ft T-Pain & TI
- Reading: My current journal entry?
- Watching: The screen, d'oh!?
En estos días he estado alejado de esto, y sinceramente estoy muy preocupado, no de DeviantART, sino de lo que probablemente es un blog (mi journal 
). Desde que hice el último post acerca de los featurings y eso, no he posteado nada y eso es obviamente porque he estado ocupado, muy ocupado partying, y eso. Bueno, me he dedicado ahora al arte Conceptual mientras consiga mi Tablet y mi nueva PC porque sinceramente que sin ambos no puedo hacer lo que realmente me gusta, no estoy diciendo que el arte conceptual no me gusta, sino fuese así, entonces por que perdería mi tiempo haciendo fotografías en ese estilo? Y no se si llamarlo estilo porque lo que siento al ver un arte de ese modo es mucho mas lejos que un estilo, y que solo llamarlo de esa manera, mas adelante yo los voy a dejar con fotografías que sin duda alguna me han dejado con la boca abierta entrando moscas y es por la razón que muchas de estas se me hacen difíciles de hacer por lo materiales y eso que tengo que conseguir. Me gustaría saber que las personas piensan a veces, es que se le surgen cosas que me dejan totalmente pasmado, yo se que mucha de estas van con el escenario que montan y por el lugar en donde vive cada uno, pero aun así se me hace tan difícil el poder lograr algunas fotos. Algunos Deviants no contestan mis notas cuando les pregunto que materiales implementaron para hacer tal fotografía, otros sin dudar me contestan, tengo ideas iguales o parecidas y sinceramente que a partir de par de semanas más en adelante podré producirlas y enseñárselas. Bueno es hora de volver a trabajar y necesito tomar mi break, para poderle mostrar los sentimientos de las personas y la idea conceptual que tiene cada una de estas imágenes que continuación presentare 
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Passionate
"Below I have decided to make emphasis to show you all what I do like and probably the most beautiful ART you have seen in the whole world". 
dA Love
Amused
... I like this person a lot 
Adoration
